AN ODE TO MY (L)ONLY WEAKNESS

I chanced upon this poem while my mom was selling my worn out schoolday copies. This is a poem I had composed in an especially boring chemistry class back in class X. I have fond memories of those turbulent days-the late teens were my period of self discovery,both physical and mental. The quest for self discovery persists,but that was the time when i became aware for the first time that I had a genital, that there are desires beyond topping in class X, that I could think,that each individual has different thoughts,that these thoughts,however idiosyncratic,have a common thread...

Now here is a poem that I am not especially proud of now.It shows every sign of my limited vocabulary,and even limited prowess in poetry( not that it is much better now). But I include it here in my blog because i am proud of the fact that i used to THINK,and THINK hard at that point of time. Precocious i might have been,but then great thinkers have always been precocious ,have'nt they?( ofcourse i don't imply anything!!).

AN ODE TO MY (L)ONLY WEAKNESS

Press,press,press and finally it flows
Pleasure rolls down my mind ,body and soul
Eyes close in a moment of satisfaction
And my heart breaks for long hours of depression.

My heart,my tender heart feels oh-so-guilty
He does'nt know from inside that it's reality
The hours then follow,the dreaded hours
Of doing nothing but sitting beside the bedside chair.

" You're Addicted and Shall Be Ruined"-warns the solemn Brain
But my minor me indulges in the pleasure of this suffocating pain.
I love it so, I cannot let it go
For , catering to the world and made to like what they see
These are the moments when I find the 'me' in me.

I would love to compose a poem on the same topic in this stage of my evolution.Turbulent days they were,with me always at the epicentre of the tug-of-war between my spiritual initiations at my weak flesh.The battle still rages,but I have finally outgrown the age of tug-of-war...

But before that I need to attend to that vicious vamp called the sem.And i would really like to get a reaction from any bored soul who might have cared to visit this blog.